I want to start writing! Honestly I could not tell you why, it is just always been a life long goal of mine to simply live my life and write. It could be that iconic cozy cottage core slow life that is so picturesque amongst writers, or the want to be a traveling writer and allowing my readers to see the wonders of the world and my life vicariously through me, or maybe perhaps I just have a need to express myself and feel as though I have my own voice. I deserve to be heard, if not by everybody at least by myself.

You see for me writing is a deep internal reflecting of the mind and spirit and is truly the only way people in 1000 years could possibly know not only who you were but what was on the inside. I don’t want to write for other people. No rather, I am not into journalism or news very much, although if it interest me I would be more that happy to write about it. Of course I wouldn’t mind if one day somehow people found my personal thoughts and rambles interesting but that’s not necessarily my goal. I want to write to challenge myself and give myself the opportunity to learn and reflect on the internal warfare that fights with in the human mind everyday.

Funnily enough, I am not all to fond of reading and never have been, but it is something that I have begun to challenge myself in. For I wish one day to be considered wise. Writing on the other hand has always allowed me to truly express myself no matter what or how I felt, I never needed an audience to write. I write as if it were lettered onto myself, This has given me the shadow of confidence that I have to begin this journey. But right now I am so caught up in trying to open this writing blog and with everything going on in life that I forgot the simple part of it all, and that is simply to write stuff down.

I’ve been going though such an immense block for I truly don’t know how long. And it has not just been for writing, also in life, it is almost as if I either don’t know what I want to do or I simply can’t do it. To much focus on money, materialistic thing, and what the future holds. I need to be focusing internally and allow the spark that is inside of me to shine. For it is in me and God has given a talent, I just need to allow it to flow and nourish from within and not force or put pressure on myself. That could lead to the stifling of my internal ember.

With that all said and done, look at me go. This is the first time I have been able to write anything in months and its because I am not even looking at my screen, or fixing any typos (“I know there are so many, ill just edit it after.”), and I am just allowing the words to flow out from within me. I believe everyone has a gift and what we do in our lives matter and I believe it is everyone’s duty to full fill their gift in a way that exults the Lord however that manifest. Mine I believe is to write, now I am not saying I am any good, but writing is what I shall do because it is what I feel called to do. So I am choosing to go on this hopefully long journey of writing, and learning, and studying, to get better and perfect my craft.

I want to get better!

I want to lay my mark upon this world!

I want to have Legacy for my son to be proud of!

I want to be a Fantastic amazing writer one day!

That all starts right here and right now. I pray that God works through me and blesses my hands, I wish to be nothing but exceedingly open about life, personal matters, philosophies, history and current events, what books I am reading, what new hobbies I pick up, Everything I deem my input upon. I honestly have no clue what I am going to end up being know for or writing about but one day I wish to write a book. (probably fiction) for I have some Ideas involving that. Until my next post.

Ex Nihilo Nihil Fit